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This will be my last entry on live journal.....
.....the only exception to this is leah dirkse cause I enjoy her journal....
I love how life throws you curves...where you don't know why things happen to you when they do, but when you find out the reason why.....you understand completely and it makes everything happy and better for you.
Differnt things, differnt feelings, differnt people have all been happening with me. Mainly differnt things.....I'm understanding why things have been happening all wrong to me.....because it all now adds up to a simple boy who's captured my heart for a long time now. I just....never saw it before until now... all the hurting people caused me and not once this boy caused me one tear...unless it was to just be happy.
I just hope everyone knows the real reson why I quit livejournal......because I dont care about what people have to say, because most people put things on here just to start shit with other people or to rub things on other peoples faces.....which is not only immature but it's pointless....
Yes, yes I know "Courtney why are you being such a bitch? Courtney why are you acting this way? Livejournal is cool!!" NO! LIVE JOURNAL IS NOT COOL. INFACT ITS FUCKING DUMB. and it causes way to much drama...
Just so you know that when you're getting drunk and your green apple chapstick comes off on your smirnoff bottle you will miss me, and you will cry. But not only cry...you will feel the pain that i have felt along with your own...you will feel the guilt that I had to suffer through when I did NOTHING to you, but still was tortured immensly....Then you will make that call to me that you should have so long ago, and then realize that it's to late. And I wont care. because......I just don't anymore. :|
*please forgive any language that offended you*
Love always,
Charlie
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I have to make this entry
quick cause I gotta leave
in like 10 minutes.....
I'm going to jersey, and
I'm so exited but koinda
scurred cause I don't like
heights. hahah That's one
of the things on my to
do list to get over...
but so far my summer has
been like pretty fun I've
been hanging out with grant a lot
Last night we were hanging
out and he went to get my
cigarettes and I sat in the
car and just cried...wow
I'm gunna miss you grant!♥
but all in all its pretty fun
wow this entry was kinda pointless
but i gotta go! <333
Love always,
charlie
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| 6/26/05 - 6:52 pm] |
hate
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live journal
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....I was walking with a ghost....
he called me.
I am NOT happy.
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[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[x] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[xxxx] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[x] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[ ] I Had surgery...
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[x] Been arrested
[ ] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist
[x] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[x] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[x] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[x] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[x] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[x] Been Skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[x] Had someone cheat on you
[xxxxxx] Miss someone right now
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| 6/18/05 - 8:58 pm] |
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Alright so yesterday my step
sis took me out with her
friends david and mar-kee
to city place and we watched
that batman movie and drank
in the theater. They all kept
tellin' me I looked like katie
holmes and I told them to
"shut their caca mouths" literally.
lol but we left early cause it
was gettin close to 1:30 and
we had to be home by then.
me and jess were both trashed
so we were walkin out of the
theater and stumbling right
in front of the security and
laughing our asses off.
Man today was so fun....
I was supposed to go to
the mall with diana but
my dad was being the
biggest butt so I couldn't
go. So my step sister told
me to go to the beach with
her instead of stayin' home
all day. So I decided to go
with. Jessica's friends David
and Mar-kee picked us up and
we left to hit the beach.
Knowing the weather it was
gunna rain but we tried to
get ther before it rained,
and right when we got to
lake worth beach it poured.
hahah it was so great cause
we were all yellin out the
windows, so we decided to go
back to davids house and drink :)
and we did. His house is so nice....
his whole room is the entire
upstairs, in one of the rooms
he had a pool table and you
know that I played on that. :)
So I kinda got tired cause
we were watching signs so
David gave Jessica a massage
and Mar-kee gave me one for a
long ass time too. lol I think
I fell asleep but I can't remember....
then after we got hungry so they
took us out to eat at "El Paso Taco"
it was sooooo gooooood!
They were so funny cause they acted
gay most of the time and the freaked
out the waitress...then they paid
the check and we left and they were
drivin us home and we were all
dancing in the car to lil' john it
was sooooo fun! But now I got
dropped off at home and Im waiting
to take a shower....jess is in there though. :(
all in all i had a good day &hearts
love always,
Charlie
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| 6/17/05 - 4:37 pm] |
I'm just a blank sheet of paper
This fool's about to write you a letter
To tell you that she's sorry
For the way she did you wrong
To ask for your forgiveness
For leavin you alone
She's been lookin down at me
It seems like forever
She takes the top on and off her pen
It's like she can't decide
What she wants to say
If she'd just tell the truth
I'd be on my way
But she just stares at me
And I just stare at her
She don't know where to start
To say she doesn't want it to end
Now its one hour later
And I'm still a blank sheet of paper
The sunlight is shinen' through the curtains
She's almost asleep pen in hand
There's a tear in her eye
That refuses to fall
If it would land on me
That would say it all
But she just stares at me
And I just stare at her
She don't know where to start
To say she doesn't want it to end
Now it's four hours later
And I'm still a blank sheet of paper
But she just stares at me
And I just stare at her
She don't know where to start
To say she wants you back again
One broken heart later
And I'm still a blank sheet of paper
Does anybody else feel this way or is it just me? ♥
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